It all has to do with our childhood.
It's funny how everyone victimizes themselves when talking about their childhood. When someone has to synthesize their life as little kids, somehow they were never cool, they were always bullied and pressured by their other friends. Well, just for the hell of it...I WAS A FOLLOWER AND MANIPULABLE AND WEIRD TOO. When Claudia puts herself in that weird, freak-like position, I imagine myself, physically, doing the exact same thing. I imagine myself with the typical awkward face, looking around to see if someone is watching me, not because I'm doing something wrong, but because I know that what I'm doing is extremely queer and am uncomfortable to watch (whoops, victimizing again). Yes, little Claudia inspires that type of inner child in me. Child reasoning is very, very tangled.
Everything is manipulable. Even our behavior. Well, actually only manipulable if we are trained since little.
Let's see if AP Psych actually served me something.
Claudia's way of interpreting stuff is also very...different. Her type of behavior approaches our instinctive kind-of-behavior. When we are little, we are less influenced by humanity and its rules to everything. These are the times in which our inner animal is let out. When Claudia doesn't understand something, she twists and adapts it to her own comprehension. For example, while watching two people have a conversation, she immediately catches their gestures and says that "their conversation is like a...dance: sound meets sound, curtsies, shimmies, and retires"(15). Did you see that? You just experienced the way of processing thoughts and encoding them of little Claudia. Interesting huh. Those brains are full of wonders.
You may wanna write that down, it all has to do with classical conditioning. (Old guy in pic).
Okay, we don't want to drive off too far from the topic. Think Great Depression. Think different ways of interpreting crises. Think genuine imagination. Think modesty, incomprehension, and mostly, failed love attempts. Conclusion (for today): corrupted childhood and innocence because of the evil ways of humanity.
Perhaps Claudia IS a victim. We are only reading the first chapters of he rlife and reality has been pretty tough on her. She hates herself so much that she wishes to be soemthing fake and stereotyped under the label PRETTY. I would say her behavior is a mere reflection of her childhood and has corrupted her self-image.
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